Book as a collage .. with lots of interesting questions to ponder about
Reading: Year of the Monkey by Patti Smith
Year of the Monkey by Patti Smith
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
Enigmatic read. Stories like her Polaroid photographs, collaged together.
Sometimes I am loosing touch with what I am reading, because I am taken on my own journey by her musings and by her melancholic voice. It is like a reading meditation.. it’s lovely to get lost in your own garden of thoughts in such a way..
7/ .. some guy with a greasy ponytail leaned over and puked on my boots. The last gasp of 2015, a spray of vomit ushering in the New Year. A good or bad sign? Well, considering the state of the world, who could tell the difference?”
Always amazed how much she reads! In every of her books I discover some new authors that I mark for myself “to read”..
While reading this personal account of 2016, was thinking back of my own version of it. The Time Perspective conference in Copenhagen.. recently over various conversations was transported back into that year and the one that followed it, 2017.. Both were turbulent in different ways, but also with pockets of very peaceful times and places. Lots of travels, dancing, drawing and painting, beginning of the musical journey as well..
42/ .. book he’d set on the table, Pascal’s Arithmetical Triangle
– Are you reading that? I asked
– You don’t read books like that, you absorb them..
I think I absorb books by Patti Smith more, than I read them..
20/ “the trouble with dreaming is that one can be drawn into a mystery that is no mystery at all, occasioning absurd observations and discourse leading to not a single reality-based conclusion.”
Theme of the dreams and dreaming – echoes in me every time, and my project on the topic somehow finds its way into other people’s books. I keep on thinking of dreams and dreaming described in The Khazar’s Lexicon by Milorad Pavic.. still entertaining the idea of making illustrations to some of those passages.. dreams travelling from people to people and through time.. my Dream Guardians project that started in 2017 about the goddess that dreams the world and we should not disturb her sleep if we don’t want out world to disappear.. and mysteries and melancholy that permeates Orhan Pamuk’s The Black Book..
31/ .. – let’s say they were real, does being inserted by Bolano within a work of fiction render them fiction?
– the writer must know his characters so well that he can access the content of their dreams…
– who creates the dream? …
79/ I notice that my own tears burn my eyes, that I am no longer a fast runner and that my sense of time seems to accelerating.
Marcus Aurelius “Meditations”: Do not act as if you had ten thousand years to live”. .. he asks us to note the passing time with open eyes..
80/ The Game of Havoc: Havoc, an uppercase game with a lowercase deity, spelling nothing but trouble for the unwary participant. One finds himself assailed with components of a dreadful equation… … unsuspecting Dorothy in a hypnotic fields of Oz..
82/ My logic may have been full of holes but so was Wonderland.
The hare presided over an endless tea party, as calculable time had been slain long before the party began. It was the Hatter who did the slaying, spreading his arms and singing the immutable Wonderland theme.
When Johnny Depp embraced the role of the Hatter he too was drawn into this multiplicity of being and ceased to be just Johnny.
Will we die a little?
78-79/ Ten thousand years or ten thousand days, nothing can stop time, or change the fact that I would be turning seventy in the Year of the Monkey. Seventy. Merely a number but one indicating the passing of a significant percentage of the allotted sand in an egg timer, with oneself the darn egg. The grains pour and I find myself missing the dead more than usual.
Lots of existential themes in this small passage: time, getting older – changes in own body, death and dying, loosing close friends and relationships, aloneness.. in Yalom’s words: “the inevitability of death for each of us and for those we love.. our ultimate aloneness..” My mom turned seventy in 2019.. very similar discussions we had with her, especially about “missing the dead”..
122/ Cammy and Ernest and Jesus and the blonde, all characters in an alternative reality, black-and-white cutouts in a Technicolor world. .. A world that in itself was nothing, yet seemed to contain an answer for every unutterable question in early winter’s impossible play. ..
170/ not exactly a telescope but an instrument of beyondness.
175/ standing our ground with mental plow, burdened with the task to stay balanced in these unbalanced times..
– > I find this is still relevant although Smith mentions that this book might seem irrelevant years after all of the events of 2016 and 2020. But 2022 is even more unbalanced, and we are even more burdened with the task to stay balanced and standing our ground with the mental plow..
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What Am I Reading Now – February 2022
I often read a few things in parallel. Currently it is:
- Irvin D. Yalom & Ginny Elkin: Every Day Gets a Little Closer: A Twice-Told Therapy – an interesting account of therapy sessions recollected both by the therapist and the client. I’m about 1/3 through with the book. Reads easy, but I have to make stops to process the process that is happening there. Yalom has been always associating first with the existential therapy for me.
- Oliver Sacks: Awakenings – collection of cases of how people who were victims of the 1920s encephalitis lethargica epidemic were treated with the new drug at the time – L-DOPA. Gives an insight about the specifics of the perception of time among people with Parkinsonism and many other things.
- Michel Foucault: Maladie mentale et personnalité – I’m reading it in Russian. But interestingly intersects with what Oliver Sacks writes about the influence of the institution on the personality. I’m half way through the book and made quite a few notes, and also noted quite a few other books that I would like to read. One of them has already arrived: R.D.Laing: The Divided Self.
- M.I.Finley: The World of Odysseus – I’ve been always fascinated by the ancient history, but also the adventure novels – I’ve read Homer’s Odyssey, and then R.Halliburton’s The Glorious Adventure – an almost contemporary try to revisit all the places Odyssey went. Am curious to see what the historian will tell me about it.
- Henry H. Hart: Venetian Adventurer: Being an Account of the Life and Times and of the Book of Messer Marco Polo – reading it in Russian. Another interesting travelling around character and the world around him 🙂
What Am I Working On Now – February 2022
Running my private psychotherapy practice in Copenhagen
I’ve opened my practice in Copenhagen in summer 2020. More information about it – here. I specialize in transitions and endings, psychology of time and balanced time perspective coaching and existential questions. I work in English and Russian, both in-person and online, mostly with adults, but adolescents and couples are also happening. I do have some availability in February – feel free to reach out.
Teaching
Cognitive Neuroscience of Creativity – at DIS: Study Abroad in Scandinavia, Copenhagen, Denmark.
Psychology of Time – at DIS: Study Abroad in Scandinavia, Copenhagen, Denmark.
Psychology of Health – at National Research University Higher School of Economics, St.Petersburg, Russia.
Learning
Logotherapy and existential-analytical psychotherapy with at The Viennese School of Existential Analysis, London, UK.
Hindustani Classical Music and how to play on Bansuri flute. I now practice regularly with a tabla player.
Walking
During the lockdowns in 2020 I realized that I do not walk as much as I used to. So I started to pay more attention to it and I go on walks and hikes here and there. On average, in 2020 I walked 4,3 km / day (longest walk 40km), and in 2021 – 4,7 km / day (longest walk 30 km). In January 2022 I walked on average 6,4 km / day.
Reading: A Matter of Identity by Oliver Sacks
We have, each of us, a life story, an inner narrative – whose continuity, whose sense, is our lives. It might be said that each of us constructs and lives a ‘narrative’, and that this narrative is us, our identities.
If we wish to know about a man, we ask, ‘what is his story – his real, inmost story?’ – for each of us is a biography, a story. Each of us is a singular narrative, which is constructed, continually, unconsciously, by, though, and in us – through our perceptions, our feelings, our thoughts, our actions; and, not least, our discourse, our spoken narrations. Biologically, physiologically, we are not so different from each other; historically, as narratives – we are each of us unique.
To be ourselves we must have ourselves – posses, if needed be re-possess, our life-stories. We must ‘recollect’ ourselves, recollect the inner drama, the narrative, of ourselves. A man needs such a narrative, a continuous inner narrative, to maintain his identity, his self.
Oliver Sacks, The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat, p. 116-117
What Am I Working On Now – April 2020
Time Talks
A series of online Time Talks – open lectures and discussions by the researchers and practitioners on various aspects of the concept of time in psychology. Run by Time Perspective Network, Denmark and Creative Time Studio. All the upcoming zoominars are listed on the Facebook page and website. All are recorded and further available on the youtube channel.
Teaching
Psychology of Time – at DIS: Study Abroad in Scandinavia, Copenhagen, Denmark.
Psychology of Endings– at DIS: Study Abroad in Scandinavia, Copenhagen, Denmark.
Learning
Logotherapy and existential-analytical psychotherapy with at The Viennese School of Existential Analysis, London, UK.
Hindustani Classical Music and how to play on Bansuri flute.
Researching
Linking the time awareness, future thinking and sustainability across disciplines: Futurization of thinking and behavior. Time Perspective Network, Copenhagen, Denmark.
Planning a study to address different observations made during the COVID-19 pandemic and reactions to it.
Cleaning up
Creative Time Studio is undergoing a spring clean-up, both in terms of revising various objects that collected there, but also revising the projects and courses it offers. I have a few ideas I’m developing at the moment and I am also opening up for individual consultations. More info to follow soon.
The 100 days project
This time around I have decided to join the #the100dayproject with short sound clips from my flute practices. You can follow my progress on Instagram – I post a minute clip daily in my story.
Psychology of Time and Well-Being
Dear friends and colleagues, please help me to record a guest lecture for a Positive Psychology course – I find it extremely difficult to talk without an actual audience.
Time: Apr 5, 2020 05:00 PM Copenhagen
During this talk I will:
– give a very very very brief intro to how time is studied in psychology,
– how I ended up in this research field, in which I’m ‘stuck’ now for almost 20 years (celebrating my anniversary this August),
– what is a time perspective and what is a balanced time perspective profile
– I will talk about my research on the balanced time perspective profile in Russia and in Sweden.
I also usually have some tips on what can be done to achieve it, I might adjust it as a response to the current new conditions for many of us.
You will also have an opportunity to take the test and discover your own temporal profile.
We can also have a Q&As session at the end of the talk.
Join Zoom Meeting
Meeting ID: 759 397 541
Contour drawing online: March 29, 2020
This is “corona-free-zone” 🙂
Since making art is not cancelled, let’s use this opportunity to be together and do something fun!
Contour drawings are really easy and fun to make, no previous experience is needed! You can do it on your own or with your family / friends!
All you need is some paper and something to draw with – pencil, pen, marker, whatever you have 🙂
As the Studio is closed due to the lock-down, your donation would be greatly appreciated!
It’s on “pay what you can if you can” basis
mobilepay: 71437363; paypal: anna.sircova [at] gmail.com
We will meet on Sunday, March 29, at 11.00am Copenhagen time.
The meeting will take place online:
https://tinyurl.com/sbr7pyr
Reading: Event by Slavoj Žižek
“What is really happening when something happens?” says on the book cover.. The notion of “event” has been on my mind since the discussion this February during the Psychological Winter School organized yearly by the Saint-Petersburg State University. Which was an event on its own. It was 20st consecutive edition of the Winter School and during one of the workshops we had a super interesting discussion on what is an event? …
Therefore I was thrilled to see this book in a London book shop, and hence the journey of discovering an event has begun.
All Aboard – Event in Transit
1/ Event can refer to a devastating natural disaster or to the latest celebrity scandal, the triumph of the people or a brutal political change, an intense experience of a work of art or an intimate decision…
2/ Something shocking, out of joint, that appears to happen all of a sudden and interrupts the usual flow of things; something that emerges seemingly out of nowhere, without discernible causes, an appearance without solid being as its foundation.
.. something ‘miraculous’ in an event..
Examples:
- eventual nature of Christianity – belief in the event of the death and resurrection of Christ;
- love is eventual;
- political event – Tahrir Square in Cairo and Mubarak regime;
- rise of a new art form: film noir.
3 / Event – the effect that seems to exceed its causes, space of an event is that which opens up by the gap that separates an effect from its causes.
4 / Event – an occurrence not grounded in sufficient reasons.
5/ Event of the disclosure of Being – of the horizon of meaning which determines how we perceive and relate to reality (Heidegger). Big Bang (or broken symmetry) – the primordial event out of which our entire universe emerged.
These words brought me back to the Existential Analysis course I’m currently taking, where we also discussing the philosophy of Dasein, and where the exchange with the world is essential – how do we have this dialogue, both as an inner one and external one.
Is an event a change in the way reality appears to us, or is it a shattering transformation of reality itself?
Event – Slavoj Zizek
I find this question to be a very inspiring one.. was musing over it for some time.. came to think that it’s probably both, these are interconnected things..
6/ Basic feature of an event: the surprising emergence of something new which undermines every stable scheme.
Where is My Time? – course starting on March 7th, 2020
Let’s Carpe that Diem, dear creative time explorers!
I’m happy to announce that the course “Where is My Time?” is ready for you to sign up! Join the kick-off meeting on March 7th and then the following 3 meetings will take place on March 14th, March 21st and March 28th.
Early bird tickets are available 🙂
It’s a 3 weeks long course with 4 weekly meetings.
By taking this course you will become more aware of:
- How you look at your own past, present and future;
- How does this personal view on time impacts the actions you take in daily life and how you interact with your surroundings;
- How do these different temporal frames impact your personal well-being and how you can improve it;
- How can you strengthen the positive aspects of your temporal profile and
- How to create more balance in your temporal profile, that will improve not only your personal well-being, but also will be beneficial for others around you across various daily-life situations.
This course will also help you:
- to become the author of your life’s narrative
- to build up resilience and overcome the anxiety connected with choosing the future
- to figure out what is meaningful for you
What we will do during the course:
- explore your personal temporal profile using different complimentary methods
- you will get to spend some time interviewing and observing your temporal opposite
- you will create a personalized program on how to enhance your temporal profile and get closer to the balanced one
- you will plant some seeds for new skills to grow
The course is based on my extensive research in the field of psychology of time and time perspective. The program provided in the course is evidence based, it has been piloted, further developed and crafted from 2016.
Read more about the course here.
Creative Time Studio 